I might as well be in solitary confinement. The only other girl I've seen in the flat is away just now and all the provisions seem to be for 3 people...

And I found out from Lianne's (that one girl) mum, that the security guard said not all flats were full. Three people, one not arrived yet, and I can't cross my blinking legs under the desk because of a slide out tray thingy.

I went shopping to cure boredom, spending £88. oops. I bought a watch, which I feel okay about, because it's my school exam results gift. I bought a bg, which is okay too because I need a new one for uni. Then I bought two completely unnecessary items... an "Elle" bag, smallish, black, that I kinda fell in love with. And the most unnecessary - a hat. A black angular one (a trilby?), like the one Liv Tyler wore in those Givenchy ads. It does suit me I think, but I didn't need it.

I've realised I have no orange juice or biscuits, or crisps. Rah. I did buy cold meat though.

It felt quite anticlimactic this morning but when we were approaching in the car I got more nervy. It's going to be so lonely tonight. No t.v., no radio, - and shit! I forgot about the adaptor for my cd player, gah (I'm a bit anti-new technology. I actually don't mind cds, and like my big clunky cd player).

The union, refectory, library and shop aren't open yet. Hm. No fun n games yet. At this rate I'll be home tomorrow. I'm actually going to have to cook tonight. I've really taken for granted what mum & dad do for me, 'cause no I'm on my own and it's crappy...

Tomorrow I can go to the gym, can't be bothered now, tis nearly 7 o'clock.

I don't really want to party the night away, but I'd like to chill with some new people. I could go through the welcome pack again. The uni magazine looks quite groovy. Much better than its repuation would have you believe.

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University is about to start, and I'm absolutely determined, after a life of dull, boring, work work work in my village school, to bloomin' well make the most of this. And in order to enable such a change in lifestyle completely, I'm moving out of home. I'm heading into halls baby. So today I've been packing more. Getting slightly more scared in the process too. Kinda shitting it; I'm actually going!!! I've hopefully not packed too much. Got a few local errands to do tomorrow, yawn. Also sold three things online - will net me £4. Hey - it's something!

You know, the more I think about this... Yes, I want, no, need, to move away and experience this kind of living for myself. And the party scene here really isn't much to talk about, and I bet in comparison to everyone else I'm a really humdrum partier. So, you know - Shit - I'm moving tomorrow!!! Crikey. Well, I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be. It'll only settle in once I'm there.

I remember, the night before my first day at high school I nearly retched through nerves. Thankfully it's not so tonight. I think it actually helps in a way that I've not seen it... I don't know, maybe because if I haven't seen the location at all, I can't impose any scenarios in it.

Anyway, night for now.

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